AUTHOR : SHAUN SEOW 20 and has attached to his BELOVED♥
Thursday, February 5, 2009
3:40 AM
You know what? My life has changed since that day, and i enjoy every moment with her. Sure there are happy moments and sad moments, but at the end of the day, i never regret being with her. Yes , i know what i am doing and i am fully aware. I might be blur at times, yes i admit. And there are times i messed up, but i am always happy that she is there for me. These are what are hidden inside my heart and bottled up.
I know and realise that i have a very bad habit of bottling things up. Acutally i know about myself very well. I developed this habit after some trauma, and i realised that i wasn't going anywhere if i kept bottling things up. Someone told me this and i am grateful. I realised the harm that Tea was causing me today. I can't promise i'll quit but the least i can do is try cutting down.
i ann't saying this just to please anyone. But rather, i am concerned for my health and i reminded myself that this was a goal i wanted to achieve ages ago. I have to see through it.
woah i blogged quite some amount of words..i have to tell you, i feel good after blogging this post and writing down the things which are in my heart for sometime. Although i can't elaborate more on the trauma part,as it is a long story but i hope i will make an impact in my life by doing what i like, telling people what i really want and feeling good about it.
i ann't gonna try sleeping now. its 4.12am at this moment and i don't feel like sleeping although i got rid of the load in my heart. Most probably i'll go read my books i borrowed from the libary to kill time. did you know? i enjoy reading alot and i read books at an amazing rate. heheh.. :p
today went to yj's house with px to pai nian. Afterwards went to seoul garden with yp,px,irene,ben to makan:P i eat teriyaki chicken till i scared liao heheh. But i think the next time i go seoul i'll still eat it. It is delicious. haha! Die liao lar! i suddenly wanna blog alot..
you'll have a hard time reading all of my post but not to worry, i'll change the fonts colours by paragraph for you to read haha! i also notice that i've changed from my past life to the present by alot. If i had to point out some changes , it would be --> I've learnt how to take things easily and live life not just simply for living, but to enjoy it with that special someone.
oh man! 7 paragraphs already! Man i miss those days when i had to do composition in school. Those were the days! i always loved to do em as i could pen down my thoughts and create it into something worth reading and at the same time, meaningful for the reader. Well, maybe i should go take O' levels. I really want to be a staff nurse. Its not that i dislike that i am gonna be an EN, but rather, i just admire those staff nurses and aspire to be one of em.
Oh! and! I am considering to join the police force and study police law. I heard it requires At least O' levels to be a regular. Being a police and wearing that uniform is a dream which i am considering to make into reality. If i had a choice, i would do my nursing a few years first and then change to be a police. I'd to be a nurse and get an experience be4 changing lines.
Gah! Most of the things in my mind are out! But its okay. I actually realise that being open really makes one feel more comfortable. My previous ambition from young was to become a fireman and for now, its police. Well, am i boring you? Its okay, i guess. After all its my blog. Heh its 4.28now.
I've been doing alot of my routine workout when i wake up and boy! i feel great after each workout. my plants are growing healthy and only one went crooked... it is kinda sad but somehow I've amended it with tape. Hopefully it'll grow healthy back. Gonna take a picture tomorrow.
Well, its February now and lots of events are coming up. I ain't stressing myself, don't you worry. I haven't bought my graduation clothes as i was busy on doing other stuffs. AHHH! each day draws closer and i haven't have my clothes. Most of my friend have theirs.SHIT! Die liao lar!
But I'll find one day and get em. WAH! I BLOG ALOT! I SEE LIAO I amazed! But i wanna blog more leh! If your tired, take a rest, drink some water and then come back read if you want :p
You already exceeded reading a compo page.I think this one journal! LOL! Sibei sianz leh, my army letter haven't come. Make me wait till i grow old ar! Oh yeah! I starting work at next Monday if the job is confirmed. Its like in those warehouse. I love warehouse jobs as i had did one before. Actually i love those jobs as i am not a very social person. I love to keep friends to a minimum number of group and i feel comfortable in it.
To make matter worst,its in clementi! No choice, I've to work! Slacked too long at home , and i have to buy something. :P heheh! my moustache is growing and i like! Lol! I am going to go shopping one of these days for that thing. I only hope it isn't sold out yet... I don't know why but at this point of time, i feel energized! But my leg muscle tired... i don't really know why?
Nooby god, my old/past online dota friend once said : Life isn't a bed of roses everyday. It is very true, however, you can make Everyday a fun and enjoyable one. I realised I've something to protect in my life. It is precious to me and it shall remain... Precious.
ps: i've finally decided to stop blogging. you can be happy! you just read finished of what seem a thick book. Its 4.46am now. Time to try to pig! I **** her.
at yj house.
me and peixin.
