AUTHOR : SHAUN SEOW 20 and has attached to his BELOVED♥

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

11:54 PM

Have you ever had the feeling of you knowing what to do and yet people saying that you didn't know what to do just because you wanted to suprize em at the last moment/ or keeping quiet but u have that idea? Well if you didn't, its what i've been encountering these days.

I know i have a temper of not wanting people to critisise me, but sometimes i feel so unjust and unfair. Just because you guys thought i didn't knew doesn't mean i don't. I just can't find words to describe how i'm feeling. I try to explain, but some people in green for example, would just think that i was conjuring up excuses. After a while, it gets tiring u know. Yet the unjust is felt, unable to release.

Outside of my commitment to the green, its still the same. The same old shit of people, thinking that i was just fooling around, spending a day by a day, and not knowing what i knew. I do. Yet critics like em may say that if i really knew what to do, why don't i go ahead and do it so that they won't have a chance to say me.

You have to explore this. People tend to overlook what the other person is thinking. Just so they thought that you are silent, they think that you did not have the idea, or worst off, they thought u didn't care.

A person, which is very close to me, once taught me that if she/he did not perform the action or speak, its not that she/he don't care. Its circumstances that she/he couldn't and his/her heart is always there as so we know.

As a guy, i can't complain much. But yet the unjust and the frustraction is building up. I don't know anymore. <--- this line may sound stupid and lost but the fact is i'm lost and i can't thahan all these. Respect is all i want. If i can't even get it, nothing else matters. Really.

Friday, January 15, 2010

10:26 PM

Its a long time, since i penned my thoughts. Its a stressful year this year and i can say that lots of peeps are encountering severe stress such as I do too.

There are many wishes & things that i wanna fulfill this year and i hope to achieve em. But sometimes reality's real harsh. I had the joy of knowing that i got selected for platoon medic but yet was unable to go somewhere special during Feb. I guess good things rarely comes in doubles.

The promises i couldn't achieve yet, but there are factors affecting it, so i'm in a diliema. Maybe its just part of growing up and getting used to know how society works. That being said, i haven't really grown a lot.

Oh, and recently, just found out that i had a short&bad temper. Been aware of it for quite sometime now and i know just the thing to do for it. :P Time to go back to what i used to do to curb or rather i would say manage it better. Sorry to those whom ''Kenna'' my Short circuit temper Warth.

As i lay down my pen, I've got a last thing to say.
I LOVE YOU DEAR. My resolves never fades.